To start things off, in my last post, I wrote about a guy named Ross. Amazing guy by the way...on July 2nd, he asked me out at 2:30am on my deck steps. We got to know each other and I fell for this kid fast. Yeah he does some stuff I don't approve of but I totally understand why he does them. My parents love him and he recently moved in with us because he is/was homeless. My whole family loves him better than my ex-fiance' (which today I was suppose to marry him.) But things are going wonderful with him. I couldnt be happier
I'm still looking for a job. I had my Graduation party/ 18th bday party on July 19th, my bday was the 22. It was soooo much fun. Got duct tape to the pole by my brother Guy, cuz Kim and my bf Ross. Cake smashed in my face by my best friend Leona and then got scared by the cops at a friends house and busted with a noise violation but moved it to his brothers house. Got my tounge pierced on my birthday and pierced Ross's lip too. Got a cat named Bud but had to give him away =(
I have to mention this....I met someone last week, his name is Adam. Totally cool guy. Funny. smart and just laid back. He wasn't right in the head kind of. Well...
lets just say me and like 5 other people were the last to hang out with him. He went to our favorite swimming/partying spot in some quarries and hung himself. He was 22. RIP Adam. my friend Taylor found him swinging from the tree. I feel so bad for her. His funeral was today. On her birthday actually. I just cant get over that he did it. I had a gut feeling something wasn't right. I wish I couldve ran after him like I wanted to. My ex fiance...he realizes what he lost and wants me back. He wanted me to leave Ross last week to go back to him. What would have been our 1 year on the 5th. He made that sooo much worse. He called me and said Happy Aniversary. Today, we would have gotten married. I totally hate it and dont know what to do. I love Ross to death. He makes me, me basically. But Eddie, I dont understand why he is doing this. He sent me a text message from someone else's phone and denied it and called that person to say if I called deny knowing me. Yeah I loved him for 5 years but I dont really love him or have feelings for him anymore...I just dont know what to do.....
Im sorry that this was so long..just got alot going on.
And I need help in some way..
So if you can help me, thanks!