Everyone struggles with their weight at one point or another in their life. For me, my weight problems started at the age of 19. I've never been overweight, I never experienced the struggles of weight loss but that doesn't mean I never struggled. I'm different than most of the people on this site because my difficulty came from the other side of weight problems. Instead of being morbidly obese, I was morbidly anorexic and bulimic.

I am a smart, caring person who lost sight of taking care of myself. At my lowest adult weight I was 91 lbs. I could slide my jeans off, size 00, without unbuttoning them. I was a college sophomore at the start of my problems, and despite being a full-time student and working two jobs, I still worked out twice a day. I thought that was normal. What's even worse is that I was a pre-med student, and I thought I was being healthy.

At the end of my junior year everyone knew I had an eating disorder but me. The person who finally confronted me was my boss, a Campus Life Dean I had met freshman year. He had tracked my multiple gym visits through my college ID badge and had noticed my extreme weight loss. After weeks of being in denial, he was finally able to convince me to meet with a counselor on campus. Today I have no doubt in my mind that he saved my life.

My story, like most, involved years of struggle. I would love to say that after that day I never went back to my old life-style. I fought every single day to continue towards health, and am still fighting today. No matter what side of weight problems you are on, its a struggle every day to change the life you had become accostumed to.

Today I am at a healthy 130lbs. I continue to watch my diet and exercise to ensure that everything I do will lead to a healthy body, not one of skin and bones. And still every day I fight that urge to return to the life I used to live. I am a new person now, I feel confident, strong and able to take care of myself. I will be attending medical school in the fall- a life long dream for me. Surviving my weight problems has made me a stronger person, and I hope that others can learn from my story and know that not every weight struggle means you had to lose weight.

My story is almost exactly the same as yours. Mine started at age 9. Anorexia by 14 and bulimia by 18 that lasted til I was about 36. Four miscarriages, even though I ate good while pregnant (or thought I did anyway at the time). Didn't matter, because if your body is not healthy when you get pregnant, it is too late.

Thank you for sharing your story, becasue you touched me and probably many others. It is very hard for people to understand the emotional ups and downs of people with eating disorders. I think the worst part is that with bulimia most likely nobody else knows. It is all within ourselves and we have nobody to go to for help or support of comfort. It really is a very lonely journey, and often a shameful one.

I, too, finally recovered completely as far as my actions go, but it took a few years to get there. I will always have the scars to prove my past, mentally and physically, but we can only move on and do our best to live the best we can and be the best we can be and be healthy.

I wish you the best, best, best, and PM me if you ever want to talk. Sometimes I feel very alone with my feelings about this, and that's why I come here. Although the issues are different, in many ways they are not. It is all within the head no matter which way you want the scale to go. I've been both. Mine started becasue I was getting obese as a child...then a few years later it was the opposite...but the mind didn't change!

I guess we all have our demons, and talking about them is the best therapy.

Thank you for posting that. I know that we do get tend to forget the other side of the weight issue. Regardless of if you are overweight/underweight I sometimes think we all have one thing in common, and that's the ability to deny what we see when we look in the mirror.

I'm glad to see that you're maintaining a healthy weight now and wish you luck in med school. That is definately a major commitment! But well worth it in the end. At least that's what my own personal physician tells me.

Thank you for this post....my mom had (still does at times) the same issue...it worries me and my wife alot, but theres no telling her different at her age...shes healthy so the docs say but keeps letter herself think shes to fat and goes on these trips of eatting nothing but lay chips and pepsi...then doing her thing in the bathroom....anyway shes now in pretty good dshape for a woman of 64, shes lost lots of wieght and feels good about herself, and friend of hers has her walking lots and at least making small meals insted of her saying shes not hungry....long story short.....she still does this now and then, but for the most part has stopped and has gotten in better health...

I am glad your good now, as a med student or doc what ever you are now..you can use your experience to help others in this situation and can actualy say...you know what they feel cause you have been there...Good luck to you and God Bless

Thanks for posting your story, TXfaith. Basically we all have the same problem - an unhealthy relationship with food. Glad to hear you are doing so well now.

TXfaith, I hope you are going to stay here. It is always nice to see new folks posting.